Wazzzzuuuupppp ! Happy Chinese New Year To All My Chinese Friends ! Have a good one. <3

Shit happens. It happened again. I freaking deserve this. This is what happened if you " read the same book, you'll get the same freaking ending " . Why oh why must you come back and mess up my life again ?! I've gotten over you because you left me months ago but the moment you came back, the feelings came back again. Do you know how hard it is for me to get over you? It's not easy seriously. Now I've to go through the same process again, what the hell do you want from me?! Get lost from my life & don't come back again because all you do is mess up my life. I don't need people like you in my life anymore. Yes you made me happy but now you're gone. What's the point of making me happy & giving me hopes if you've already plan to leave me? Just get lost from my life. This is one of the reasons why I'm not interested in love. I always fall for the wrong one & forever loving the one that I can never get. Eyeing on someone who doesn't even care about me, loving someone who doesn't even appreciate it. Just get lost ah ! Maybe now is not the right time & I shall mind my own business. WHERE GOT TIME FOR LOVE ?

Hello everyonezxs. A year ago, I remember how scared I was in the morning mainly because I was very afraid that I might disappoint my family with my O levels results. Yes, my family plays the biggest part in my life, their happiness is my happiness. I had lots of negative thoughts in mind, I can't imagine how my parents will react if my results aren't good but Alhamdulillah I made it! Only God knows how relieved I was when I saw my grades. It may not be as good as others but I told myself that this is what I deserve after putting my heart & soul into the papers. I forced my lazy self to study & focus on ten year series everyday. I told myself that the amount of effort I put in will determine my results. If I slack, I should bare the consequences & I've no right to feel regret later on because I chose to slack so yeah I deserve it! I'm satisfied with my results, I'm very grateful, Alhamdulillah. Of course, at times I do hope that I've better grades but what's done is done, I should be grateful. I will never forget the day I received my O levels results. One of the most memorable days in my life. I can't stop thanking God for all the blessings that He has given to me. Now that I'm in poly, Alhamdulillah, I will try my very best to do well in studies & get into university, Insyaallah. I want to further my studies because I don't find the need to do anything else besides studying for now. Hopefully I get to achieve my dreams, Insyaallah.

So yeah that's it for now. Take care peoplezxs. To those who received your results today, congratulations! If you're unhappy with your results, do not worry, your life is not over. There are many other choices out there, retaking is not a bad choice. Remember, in life there is something called " second chance" go for it ! Keep calm & believe in yourself. Trust God, He knows best.

-The thoughts that I'll not be getting any text from you tmr since both of us will be busy makes me feel like crying.

Hello allzxs ! Few days ago I was involved in the Singapore Poly Open House 2012. It was very exciting & it's my first time being a tour guide, I think I did okay ( for a first timer ). I had fun with my classmates especially with the girls. We had lots of fun together, I feel so blessed, Alhamdulillah. Saw lots of familiar faces & I saw my cuteboy too. So happy please!! Hehehe. So yea tomorrow is Monday, time to get back to books because exams are in about 5 weeks time. Panic mode activated. So many things to do, so little time left. Hockey training will resume this Tuesday, yes back to my hectic schedule. Okay keep calm & carry on! I can do this yo ! So I guess that's it for now. I'll be back soon. Take care &  spread the love.

- 3 more days to Fafa's birthday. ( I don't know why I still bother )

Thank you Allah for all the blessings that you have given to me. I'm truly grateful, Alhamdulillah. Why you so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ?

Whazzup peoplezxs ! So how's your holiday so far ? I really wish that I've lots of money right now because there's sales everywhere but yours truly do not have the moolah so what's the point you see ?! Now that I don't have the money, there's sales everywhere but once I've the money, BOOOM! Sales all gone ! This thing keep happening to me, forever & always. Haiz! So basically I do not have plans today & don't think my parents allow me to go out today so stay at home it is! But I' am so going out next week because it's my last week of holiday! Somehow I'm lil excited for the Open House, as if the Open House is for me. Hahaha. Can't wait to see new faces. Hehehe. Okay uhmm, I don't think anyone is reading my blog now but I'm fine with it because my point of blogging is just to share my random thoughts & to blog blog blog. So yeah I think I don't have anything to blog already so that's it for now. Byezxs!

Hello again! It feels good to be back blogging hopefully some shits won't happen again or else I've to privatise this again. Sian ah. Spare some thoughts for me okay darling ? You know who you are sweets. Alright so life is pretty fine so far, Alhamdulillah. What's life without some ups & downs right ? So yeah 2012 is coming real soon & I'm ready to leave my past behind. Since I've confessed to hott guy & I don't think we can work out so it's time to leave my past stories behind & embark on my new journey. I' am not going to entertain all the unnecessary things, I' am really going to start a new. So who's happy for me? Please breathe. hahahaha. Okay good!

My holiday is coming to an end real soon, why so fast ? :( Oh wellzxs, I should stay positive & think of all the good times in school. For example, seeing my eyecandy. Hekhekhekhek. Okay you tell me which girl doesn't have eyecandy? I know you have one girl! But I've to snap back to reality that eyecandy will remain as eyecandy & it's not as if I can see him everyday. Aiya so sad :( So uhmm, my blogging skills are rusty already since I didn't blog for quite some time already so please forgive me.

Oh yeah I think I'm interested to work during my next holiday, cheyy! plan already ah Shasha. Hekhekhek. I'm interested in retails so if anyone of you who knows or is currently working under retails & going to quit around early March, inform me okay? I don't know if this makes sense or not but yeah in case you have or know that there is job vacancy under retails preferabably around town area, do inform me okay? Sharing is caring ya know (:

Let me tell you something ... I feel like getting Mc Café ahhhh ! Okay that's all. Bye <3

Baby you light up my world like nobody else . Love you Troy Bbbbbbbbbolton <3 Oh tak eh? Love you Zac Efron. Muaaah!

It's been so long since I last post. Mainly because I've to privatise this blog due to some problems. Haiz whuttodo .. So obviously my life has changed a lot for the past 3 months. Yeah, like a roller coaster ride. So where shall I begin ?

School has been pretty much fine, Alhamdulillah. I'am in my semester 2 already, Alhamdulillah & MSTs are over already. I'am having my 3 weeks holiday now. Wheee ~~ I just finished my 3 days training for the Singapore Poly Open House 2011. You know whut? Yours truly will be the tour guide!! Ah huh ! So unexpected right? Imagine someone that is shy & not outspoken to be talking and guiding 40 peoples ! Mayne, that sounds crazy but yeah I'm going to do that for 4 days. Something new to me! Hekhekhekhek. Besides that, I really wonder when will the next hockey training starts because I've a mission to complete & I want to polish my skills. Cheyyy! Hahaha.

Only God knows how much I miss my favboy. Ooops, ex favboy I mean. Yes, we have stop contacting now, for realzxs! It's been months already. Didn't expect us to stop contacting because I don't know why but no matter how shitty our relationship is, somehow I can't imagine myself losing him. Haiya I know it's stupid but bleaaaaargh. Recently, I've been thinking about him quite frequently. It's crazy I tell you! I start to think that some people look like him, dream about him, think about him & even mentioned his name out of nowhere.Yes, that's how cronic the situation is.This boy has left a big impact in my life, he has changed me a lot & made me think at different perspective. He's definitely like a gift from God to me. I learnt a lot of thing through all the fights that we had. He made me closer to Allah. I thank Allah for giving me the opportunity to know this guy. Last night, I watched "100 Hari" ( 100 days ), basically they showed us the signs of death through a movie. It really touched my heart, 1 of the things that really hit me was the part when he said that we have no rights to disgrace others no matter what happens. We've no rights to punish him, let Allah do it. I realised what I've done to favboy. He was just my favboy, nothing more than that so why must I scold & talk bad about him as if I'm perfect. I've flaws too, why can't I just keep quiet & pray for the best for him? I felt really bad, no matter what he did to me, I still have to bare in my mind that he is older than me & that he must have his own reason why he does that. Let it be between him and Allah.

I'm fine with my life now, Alhamdulillah. My life revolves around my family, closed friends & school related stuffs. I'am really cool with that. Been going to school late for the past 3 days simply because training starts late so that means I'll take the train with the working adults right? I think I find guys with long sleeve, long pants & shoes are really attractive. I think I will start looking for life partner when I'm working. For now, let me just have fun doing "sight-seeing" . Hekhekhekhek. Ahluuuh, which girl doesn't? Do you miss my story about Hott Guy ? Guess what ? I confessed to him few days back, yes it took me 4+ years to build up this courage you know. I think taking O levels wasn't as tough as this. Cheyy fake! Students, go start studying for O levels before you regret. I won't reveal the respond here, let it be confidential ah eh.

So that pretty much sum up my life right now. I can't remember every detail but yeah that's about it. I really miss my Fafa. Okay not mine anymore. Sorry. Oh yeah, 2010 O level students, do come down to Singapore Polytechnic Open House, who knows I might be your tour guide. Hehehe. Alright see you guys there! Don't forget to wave at me, I'll be wearing the yellow tee, waiting for you at T11 :D See you there !

When people say they lost everything in a day, the truth is they actually still have it but for my case, I pretend like it's not a big deal but the fact is I lost it already. I lost count the number of times favboy disappoint me with his bullshits, his long absense & stuff but I'm such a sore loser to accept him back almost instantly. I'm a sucker for love. I thought he's the one for me because he always come back even after we had a fight & treat me like nothing had happened but sadly it's ain't true. I don't know what's the purpose of coming back if all he could do is kill me with his utter bullshits. I think I'm done hurting myself. I know I'm going to suffer after this, I know I'll go paranoid each time I see army guys, I know I'll constantly think of this boy. I know, I know but I will move on. I know there's chances of me going back to him , texting him, asking him to stay, I know because I'm that silly. But I will give it a try, I shall leave. I'm tired of chasing after people, this time if he wants to leave, I'll open the door for him. You may jolly well get lost e-d-yot! I'm freaking done and over with you.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin. :D