By right I should be in school now , enjoying my last day of school with my friends but sadly this flu is too disastrous hence decided to stay at home instead . Thought of skipping school yesterday but I thought I was recovering and didn't want to miss the play . So I came but during the second play , it was quite difficult to understand and I can hardly breath , I seriously need oxygen tank , yaknow the one they use for scuba diving , ahh that one , klame . So this morning was like Tuesday's morning , ready for school , hair tied nicely , bag checked and other stuffs but in the end I decided to give school a miss because I cant stand the flu . Back to last night , I guess this is the worst flu that I've ever had in my entire life . Wanted to sleep early but forced myself to stay awake for Singapore Idol sake . ha ha . But couldn't take it any longer , after Faizal Isa's performance , I fell asleep . I had a terrible headache and blur vision . haiyer . oke skip this part .
My results were oke but not satisfactory . Each time people asked me where I want to go after I graduate , I asked myself am I ready to step into the next level ?. It's not that I don't want to go Jc , I do . But by looking at my eoy results , which Jc will accept me ? What for set high hopes and big dreams if you're not working hard enough . It's like you dream to get the golden ticket to enter willy wonka factory but you didn't try your best to find the ticket . You tell everyone that you want to go to the factory but you're not trying hard enough and in the end when you failed to get the ticket , you get so frustrated and disappointed . I only have one word for this , useless . I rather work hard and set my dream not too high/low and if I get the golden ticket then I can decide what I want to do next . I know it'll be a last minute thing but still it'll be awesome . I rather work hard without pressure , pray and hope for the best than diedie I want to succeed and when I don't get what I want , disappointed and frustrated like as if there's no tomorrow . I don't like to dream big , they give me pressure .
I don't want to disappoint myself . I know people might say , why look down at yourself , be optimistic . But still we need to be realistic . I know it's not wrong to set high hopes and big dreams but everything has its limits . Look at yourself and asked if you really can do it or not . Ask yourself if are you mentally , physically and emotionally prepared to face the reality because everyone knows that life has its ups and downs . Just do your best at all time . I'm not referring this post to anyone , I told Celestine about this yesterday . This is what I felt about my results . Still , I thank Allah for everything .
& again I'm not referring to anyone . Just want to say " what comes around , goes around " , heard of it before ? So yeah , I strongly believe in this . There's this word called retribution . But it all depends on when and how you going to receive it . You only have 2 choices , to amend your mistake now and stop doing it or continue doing so and _you-may-continue-this-sentence-yourself_ . Just remember , What comes around , goes around . You just wait and see , don't be to complacent . Life is too short for you to make mistakes everyday . This is what I always tell myself , I'm not perfect , I make mistakes but I know as long as I'm still alive , there's still time for me to amend my mistakes . No one is perfect .
What a wordy post huh ? haha . It has been ages since I last post like this , so yea . I shall end my post here , I feel like watching movie .
